Cold Fire

Can’t help but beat myself,
On being the jerk that made you hurt.
With my stupid actions and silly defects,
And weird thoughts right in my head.
But dear o’ dear, my heart and soul,
You being the one I always behold.
The days and nights with you by my side,
With the love in your eyes and warm touch,
I will forever stay and leave all to rust.
You were the one, who gave me a reason,
To move over issues and be brighter,
Heard my sorrows and made me relax,
Forced me to go out and party with a blast.

All is great and working fine,
But it’s the fear which is making me resign.
I have a certain lacking of focus and want,
When things I need are right there.
To realize the desire I go through a certain test,
By end of which, everything I hoped, goes far and lost.
I am not great when the going gets tough,
Tension prevails wherever I thought I was robust.
That’s where the fault in me exists,
I don’t want you to suffer with me & persist.
Please try and forgive me for my stupid behaviour,
All I wanted is you to be happy and not dragged along in this cold fire.

By Aditya Bajpai
12th Feb 2010